A farmers toast!

Let the wealthy and great, Roll in splendour and state, I envy them not i declare it, I eat my own lamb, My chickens and ham, I shear my own fleece and i wear it, I have lawns,I have bowers, I have fruits,I have flowers, The lark is my morning alarmer, So joyful boy's now, Here's god speed the plough, Long life and success to the farmer!!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

"ecstatic trance dance"

It sounds a bit weird doesn't it .....Thats what i thought so i went!! And it was a fantastic experience let me tell you all about it...

The teacher T had newly qualified and i had be invited along as a guest to her house with a friend to celebrate their where only five of us including T.
She lives in an idylic spot in a beautiful house overlooking rolling hills, The studio was calm and had opening doors taking in the view.. It was all very laid back no alcohol just tea .
I felt a wee bit self concious as i'd spent the hour before chasing sheep from the garden and had just enough time for a quick wash and grab whatever was clean to wear {crops and a huge green t shirt} no make up. Everybody else had made an effort and looked lovely in floaty dresses and lots of jewellery [the way i used to dress].....

We stood in our own space feet apart calmly breathing in through our noses and out through our mouths Eyes shut.
Then the ryhthm started We had to move our toes to the music for what seemed like ages then our legs etc etc i was a bit wary of my neck and shoulders they'd been painful for days and a trip to the neck doctor was due....
The rhythm changed and our breathing two fast breaths in through the nose and one out from the mouth which we had to do every time i daily thought started to intrude...The music was tribal and we had to bend our knees keeping them soft and shake boobs bum legs everything it was really quiet weird to let go but i did and i stood on one spot {{{shake' shake' shakin'}}} and breathing fit to hyperventilate..
We where told we may see visions or recieve messages it effects people differently i'd listened tongue in cheek..
But it was true it worked i got quiet emotional and cried while i shook, i can't explain really what happened i felt connected to my ancestors i saw a great line stretching back through time a line of females all with so much in common still connected then before i could really rationalise it a normal thought intruded and no matter how fast i breathed or shook i couldnt recapture that moment.
The music slowed and i peeped i couldnt help it!! And I was at the other end of the room facing the wall with no awareness of how i got there.
Next was a complete "free for all" just dance inside or out with your eyes closed with the chanting "breathe of fire take me higher" Then we all slowed and lay on the ground while T played [is that the word] her huge crystal singing bowl the vibration seemed to resonate all the way down your spine to your toes..I very nearly slept.
We had danced for over 2 hours it felt like a quarter of that.

We all sat up bleary eyed and wrapped ourselves in blankets and held hands and said the first words to come into our heads i said "connected"...We sat outside until midnight and watched the moonrise..........
To finish the evening off i slept in the woods with tye, i dream't of owls and a black swan chasing a grey chiken..
I have been so calm my neck feels great, and i feel like i found a piece of myself which as been buried beneath the daily grind of day to day living for years..Very very hard to explain...
And next time i believe it will be even better.

I have also decided to give up the shop it's up for let, i want to be free , I need to be outside rain or shine...

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I've got a tow bar!!!!!!!!

Years ago 18 to be exact my friends husband and i went halfs on a trailor he had a tow bar i didnt ?? figure that.

Now i have one and theres no stopping me.

I bought a mangle for 1p on ebay and scales huge things for weighing spuds for £2.80 more scales these cost a tenner a belfast sink for £5 and any other huge things nobody else wants to move .

It's great fun especialy the reversing which i can't do, i have to leap out and do it by hand.

i've been to the tip twice and have more trips planned ie 2 old dishwashers and some bunkbeds and bundles of wire. all the things i'd stopped seeing laying around the place,isnt it amazing how unsightly things become invisible after awhile...

And I wonder is that what our grans thought of ,of their mangles..

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

young ethan.

There was an awful acident this week early morning before i was to set off for the woodfest. Ethan the big greyhound in the middle had a collision with one of the others while running around and the impact broke his neck, there was nothing that could be done and he had to be put to sleep
One day i'll write a cheery blog but life just seems to be doleing out dross for me at the moment.